Where do I begin on discussing what I feel. I can start with the word "Open." That's pretty close to what I feel. I had to sit down and examine myself and what I came to is this: I've been a Lukewarm Christian my entire life. Even during my most "devout" moments. I find it shameful, for last night I truly felt burdened for Christ. Truly, for the first time in my life, I felt the tug upon my Heart. It's not as though this moment was the first time I believed in God, or Christ, or any of the Christian beliefs, but it's more that it truly became a real thing to me. More real than anything.
Does doubt still poke at the back of my mind sometimes? Yes. I cannot and will not deny that fact, but, I do not entertain such thoughts. I know what I have seen. I know what I have experienced. I am convinced of Christ, both in Heart and Mind.
So, from here, the question is this: what now? I shall try to live like Christ: sacrificially for His glory. Death of Self, Rebirth in Christ. Unity and Love with the Creator.
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